Penatnya... *bercampur happy*

Hari ni aku tak dpat nak update bnyak sbb aku kluar rmah dr pg smpai ptg td. Huhu. Penat btul. Aku pgi mana ya td? Aku and family pgi rmah abg tiri aku yg plg bongsu kat Banting. Spnjang prjlanan pgi ke sana,mcm2 bnda yg menarik yg ktorg nmpak *nnt aku crita kat dlam post slepas ni* Isteri abg aku tu masak bnyak siot! Mcm dah kebulur je aku makan.haha! Sedap sgt lah! hehe

Aku dah mula merepek lg,haihhh.... So,dah ptg bru lah ktorg balik. And antara bnda prtama yg aku wat lepas balik ialah online and aku trkejut+kagum bila dpat tau yg MCR trending lg hari ni. Semalam dah trending,huhuhu! *bangganya!*

And,they really are the heroes!

*actully I really forget/don't know about it*

So,HAPPY BIRTHDAY THE BLACK PARADE! The best album ever! ♥ 

Kenangan ketika di SMKSI

Dah hampir setahun aku tinggalkan SMKSI kan? SMKSI tu apa ye? Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Saujana Impian :') Sekolah tu trletak dkat dgn Tesco Kajang. Hmmm..aku skolah kat situ dr Form1 smpai lah last year,Form4. Bnyak sgat knangan yg aku tnggalkan kat skolah tu. So,kat dlam post ni aku nak crita serba sdikit ttg memori aku time aku blaja kat skola tu dulu.

Kwn aku yg prtama dan still keep in touch smpai skrg ialah Hazirah dan Nikki. Dorg punye perangai hmpir serupa sikit,and both of them are cute. :D Time aku Form 1,aku duk dlam klas 1KRK3. Masa tu aku rapat dgn Amelia dan Aina.

Time Form2 lak aku dah mula rapat dgn Prashaan dan 'Ain. Dorg pnye prangat bgai lngit dgn bumi kot! Sorg rajin mlampau,sorg lg pmalas trhormat,lolol! Haha!

Thn lpas lah yg plg bnyak knangan. Tiap2 hari rutin aku mmg sgt lah sronok!

• Pagi2-pgi ke foyerB and lepak2 dgn 'Ain,Nikki,Farihah,Aisyah,Anis...and ramai lg *actually,aku dah lupa cket lah,haha* Pg2 ni lah aku akn borak2 dgn 'Ain ttg MCR n etc.
• Lpas tu pgi ke tpak prhmpunan,dgr 'cramah free' drpd Cikgu Azhar. Penat brdiri,lama kot!
• Then,pgi ke kelas...berborak2 dgn Hazirah.
• Aku akan brgaduh dgn Raasmeran,ada sekali tu ktorg brgaduh smpai ptah meja aku,wowo!
• Klau ada KH,bnda prtama yg ktorg fikirkan---kerusi! Kerusi tak pnah ckup kat bgkel tu,so kna brebut klau tak trpksa brdiri or dduk kat ats krusi kayu yg tnggi semcm.
• Rehat kat kantin. Selalunya aku akn mkan keropok lekor or nugget n minum ice lemon tea.
• PRS stuff! Nasib baik lah ada Farihah jd pneman aku. 
• Balik skolah slalunya aku akan jlan skali dgn Hazirah,then bye2 dgn dia.

Huhu,rindunya time tu! Lpas PMR lg lah best. Boleh lepak2 dgn 'Ain and Hazirah,borak2 ttg 'masa depan' ktorg and MCR. *dgr mcm serious je kan? haha* 

Kawan

Semalam aku tiba2 je trfikir ttg something. Actually aku ni kira brtuah sbb ada ramai kwan yg baik n rapat dgan aku. Cuba bygkan klau aku xda kwan? Ishk....tak snggup lah nak fikir mcmtu! 

So,aku pun tulis status kat FB ttg tu. Ramai yg aku tag,trmasuk lah Amy,Hazirah,Alif,Danya,Fatin,Izzati,Nikki & Najiha. Aku seriously trlupa nak tag nama Haikal skali,so dia agak terasa dgn aku. Mcamlah aku pnah pduli. Haha! 

Then,bila difikirkan balik,dulu kat SMKSI aku ingtkan aku tak akan pnah dpat kwan2 yg lbh baik drpd kwn2 aku kat sana,sbb tu aku mmg frust bila terpksa pndah dulu. Tp bila dah stay kat sini dkat sthn,bru aku sedar yg kat mana2 je kita still boleh teruskan hidup even bnyak dugaan mnimpa. Life must be going on. KEEP RUNNING! 

But seriously,I feel so lucky have them as my friends,my companions. Thanks guys for being my true friends! :') I really hope that our friendship will lasting until in the Heaven. 

BE FRIEND FOREVER! 

House is another word for Hell.

As you know,I'm a happy-go-lucky person. But it is changed when I'm home. Everything is seem so dark in my life right now. I'm an orphan and my mom was remarried. I pretty hate her decision since before her married. Whoever would like,anyway? And then my life is completely.

I don't know why he so mad to me like that. Just like I did something huge wrong. Dad,I have been trying and tired of trying to love you as my own father. You know what,I hate to be your step-daughter anyway. I feel like wanna scream I hate you! So,why not you just shut your filthy mouth up? urgh

I used to be a kid that no one cared about.

That's why you have to keep screaming till they hear you out.

EXAM BI

Sekali lg td mlam aku dpt 'tips' exam drpd 'Ain. Sumbernya still drpd org yg sama. Tapi kali ni 'tips' tu x detail sgt lah. Aku pun forward-kan msg tu ke Saiful Islam n Alif. Alif mmg aku dah agak dia x akan msg aku pnyelah. Saiful reply. Dia kata yg dia rasa brsalah kat aku sbb dia rasa yg dia dah menyusahkan aku je. (?) Aku pun chat dgn dia,ckp ttg exam BM n nak wat apa utk paper BI esok. Aku sarankan kat 'Ain supaya dia tulis ttg MCR (the happiest day in my life) tp dia takut ckgu x suka cerita dia tu nnt. (?) Time aku dah nak tidur pulak lah Najiha call aku. Dia tanya aku ttg apa yg akan msuk utk BI. Aku pun forward-kan msg tu kat dia. Dia reply: "Thanks,my cousin(only in FB)" <--sort of. LOL. Dia mmg cute~

Aku dah siap fikir nak pilih tajuk mana n nak crita ttg apa utk exam tu. So,utk bhgian B,aku brjaya tulis essay spnjang 4 pages sbelum masa tamat sbb aku siapkan bhagian A awal. Aku pilih soalan "The Happiest Day in My Life". Sinopsis essay aku >>>

About Ariana and her best friend,Akmal. Ariana never fall in love until she met a handsome casanova boy,Zack. Unfortunately,she got the weird curse on her--she could'nt confess her love to anyone or she would make that person 'disappear' from her life. After then and so,,she realised that she was actually in love with Akmal,instead of Zack. Then,the curse was overcame when both of them confessed their love to each other together. Happy ending~ :'D

Best x essay aku tu? X best? Sampai hati korg ckp mcmtu kan.... huhu (hehe)

Then,time rehat aku ingat nak bg roti kat Alif tp aku cari dia x jumpa2,so aku pun mkan lah roti tu. T,T

Bila aku dah mkan bru lah dia nak mncul dpn aku,aduyai. Time tu ada 'sambutan' bday Pearly. Kevin belikan kek special utk dia (untunglah...) Alif pun join skali. Time tu aku tgh lepak2 dgn Haikal,tgh study last minit utk paper 2 BI. Aku ternmpak Alif berpegangan tgn dgn Pearly. Sakitnya hati aku! Alif x malu ke wat mcmtu dpan org lain? Aku pun bgtau kat Haikal yg aku benci kat dia Alif. Haikal perli aku. Kurang ajar punya budak! then,tiba2 Alif dtang ke arah ktorg n duduk kat sbelah aku. Konon2nya dia nak study skali lah. Dia ckap kat aku yg apa yg aku bgtau dia tu betul2 msuk (excited?) Aku pun tanyalah dia nape dia x reply msg aku mlam td. Dia bgtau aku yg dia dah reply. (Haikal tgh trsenyum sinis+menyakitkan hati) Rupa2nya dia xda kredit (selamba je dia bwa phone ke skolah,dasar KILLJOYS x brtamadun!) Then,aku tanya dia yg dia jwab apa utk essay BI tu. Dia jwb soalan yg sama dgn aku. Dia kata yyg dia tulis ttg dia pgi concert MCR (ye lah tu) Aku pun teringat ttg essay yg pnah aku tulis dulu. aku pun bg dia pnjam buku essay aku tu.

Paper 2 BI x semudah paper 1. sakit tgn aku me-liquid paper-kan kertas aku tu. Tapi masa utk paper 2 mmg bnyak lah. Time exam tu lah ckgu Vasantha bgtau ktorg 'tips' sejarah. Haha!

Time balik sekolah aku berharap sgt yg aku dpat brjumpa dgn Alif sbb nak advise dia ttg berpegangan tgn tu. Tapi,mcam biasa...aku kecewa. Actually,kalau aku x plan nak jmpe dia,boleh je plak dia muncul dpan mata aku. Haih...

Balik rmah aku dpat tau yg phone aku diambil smula oleh iibu. Aku pun pnjam phone ayah,nak call kwn2 aku ttg phone lbih sbb nak pnjam. Dlam otak time tu ada Alif je lah. Aku call Haikal bertanyakan no phone Alif. Di boleh lg gelakkan aku. Siot! Malangnya,Alif xda phone lbih rupanya. So,terpksalah aku tnngu phone lama aku elok balik. Huhu!

*aku berharap sgt dpat beli iPhone 4S

DISENCHANTED

DISENCHANTED. THAT IS ONE OF THE WORDS WHICH GOT SUCH A HUGE MEANING IN MY LIFE. FRUST. STRESS. TENTION. THE THINGS THOSE ALWAYS BE IN MY LIFE'S CAGE. YOU KNOW WHAT? I HAVE SO MANY PROBLEMS IN MY LIFE. AND FRUSTRATED FOR THE HUNDRED TIMES. SO I NEVER LET SOMETHING OR ANYTHING NOR ANYONE MAKE FEEL DOWN I HAVE TO KEEP RUNNING. EVERY ENDING GOT ITS OWN BEGINNING. SO,I WISH I COULD HAVE A BETTER ENDING FOR MY BEGINNING. IN LIFE,NOTHING IS EASILY COMES AND GOES. IT WILL TAKE OUR BREATH,OUR WEALTH,AND EVEN OUR BELOVED ONES TO ACHIEVE ANYTHING THAT WE WANT. SO,THERE! COMES THE DISENCHANTED. WE HAVE TO FALL ONCE,TWICE,OR MANY TIMES TO STAND ON OUR FEET,NOT FOREVER ,BUT IN LONG LASTING.

I WANT TO SHARE THE LYRICS OF MCR'S SONG,DISENCHANTED. I BOLD MY FAVORITE LINES THOSE GIVE  THE HUGE MEANINGS TO ME. 

Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to you[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/my_chemical_romance/disenchanted.html ]
I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I can watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
We've got the obvious team
We'll show them what we all mean.

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to you

So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay

Woah, woah, woah
Woah, woah, woah

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on

You're just a sad song with nothing to say 
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to you

At all, at all, at all, at all...

I GOT ITS BEST MEANING AS WELL:

This song is basically just about how life in general is just a big disappointment for him and he has lost all belief that life is at all worthwhile, but he still can remeber some of the good times before when he still had optimism toward life. and then in the song he says how like life is just a long wait for a hospital stay cause many people end up in the hospital and then die, and all their life before that was just leading up to that. its really a sort of depressing song when you think about it but that doesnt stop me from loving it, its just so touching even if its in a sad way, i think anyways. and ya if it reminds you of someone that you loved that makes it even better.

I HOPE THAT WILL GET A HAPPY ENDING FOR MYSELF.